deisha

Sometimes

2006-10-05T23:52:57Z

i really really fucking need you.

What the world thinks...

2006-10-03T00:11:22Z

you told me it never mattered.

I took the news rather well last night. But maybe it's because I'm hiding something from the world. Or maybe because I expected it out of you. Well, who really knows...

I know its hard not to mope about it, and what not. But keep your head up. You can't beat yourself up over something that you can't take back, or something you can't fix.

Fold your cards, turn in your chips. Walk away with your head hung low, looking at your shuffling feet. Get down on your knees and weep - - not to yourself, but to God. Repent. No matter what it takes. Repent. Nothing is going to happen unless you do.

I won't even candy coat it - if and when people find out, they're opinions of you will change and they will look at you differently.

You're girl is still out there. She'll show up when you stop looking. I promise. And if she doesn't, I'll become a nun, I promise.

Just remember that David and Jonathan got through everything together.
They were there for each other. They had a trust and a bond that never got broken.
That's you and I. Because nothing will ever change my opinion about you.

NOTHING.
We're like salt and pepper bro.
And I love you.
♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

dayshuhhh @ 2006-08-31T18:01:00

2006-08-31T22:02:02Z

i hate you.

Love Addict.

2006-08-29T02:35:32Z

" Love is the most beautiful thing that exists in every relationship... It has no limitations and no boundaries."

I let everyone down... But myself.
This year will be different.
I will be different.
I love where my life is right now.

I'll update more later.
<3

My body, His temple. [Pt ii]

2006-08-22T06:27:10Z

vir·gin·i·ty n. The state of being pure, unsullied, or untouched.

I'm saving myself. My virginity is the last gift that I have from God. And I'm keeping it for the person he meant it for. Thats how it is suppose to be and that's how it's going to be. Marriage isn't just papers, marriage is love, love that binds two people who are in love, together for eternity. Together to learn, to live, to grow, and to love. With God at the center of that relationship, it will be endless.

I'm not going to be another one on the list. I'm not going to live up to anyone. I'm not going to live in anyone else's shadow. Sex is something that God gave us as a gift, our virginity, it's all his gift. A priceless one. Not even one that MasterCard could afford to replace.

I want to have sex with one person, my entire life. I want to love them enough that I'll never get bored of it. Never get bored of them. As long as my life, and my relationship will revolve around God, I will be fine. ♥

I feel so good right now.

I need to stop this shit.

2006-08-19T07:00:40Z

I'm not going to grow up no matter how hard I force it. It just needs to happen on its own.

Why do people let sex lose it's value? Why does sex just turn into fucking?
Oh my goshhhhhh.
I'm in over my head with this right now.

That time of the month

2006-08-18T07:58:30Z

Ma·ture - Having reached a desired or final condition; Of, relating to, or characteristic of full development, either mental or physical.

In me, you'll find your inspiration. In her, I find what I don't ever want to be. In him, I see what I could have twenty years from now. In me, you find your motivation. In her, I find what I'll never be. In him, I see what I'll never want to know. In me, you'll find a child. In him, I'll find all the bitterness in the world. In her, I'll find adultry. In me, you'll never get to know what you missed. In him, I'll see all the green in the world. In her, you'll find the faults. In me, you'll find lies. In him you'll find all the guilt. In her, you'll find all the secrets. In you, I'll see the the cold. In me, you'll find your biggest weakness.

It keeps going and going. What one person has, someone else wants it. It's a matter of time, and fate. We'll take our time through childhood, date through our teens, party through college, and then life hits us like a freight-train going down Mount Everest. I'll force myself to grow up. So I won't get left behind.

I'll grab my pack of Camels, that the Heroin addict bought me, smoke every last one till I crave that feeling again. Walk down my dim-lit road. And never think that I have all the time in the world. Maybe next time I should slow down, and realize that I've got my whole life ahead of me. I don't need to grow up all the way just yet.

"maybe if we buy the kind that burn slower,
the feeling will last longer,
and i can stay a little later,
so we can grow up a little faster."

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

dayshuhhh @ 2006-08-17T12:50:00

2006-08-17T16:50:39Z

I should have hit center.
Hahahaha.

For Tommy.

2005-11-06T00:16:58Z

Light a match.

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